Challenges with Being Grateful
On days 7 to 10, I was doing fine with being grateful daily for the most part. I thanked God for our basic needs being met, and the ability to give to others. However, on days 11 to 12, something interesting happened. I turned into a negative Nancy! I was negative and complaining again from the time I woke up until the time I went back to bed. I don’t know what happened. It was as if I had turned into another person. I had a bad attitude about everything. Keep in mind; I had some days off to enjoy my holiday! My circumstances were fine. But suddenly, I had this challenge with being grateful, and aggravation was taking over. It was awful! I’ve realized something huge on this gratitude journey—I can’t let my feelings determine whether I will be grateful. To get back on my gratitude journey, I rested, meditated on scriptures, listened to sermons, and made sure I was taking care of myself, which included getting nutritious meals, and so forth. I also made sure I was balancing my days with fun activities I enjoy (and my daughter reminded me of this). For example, when we went out to see fireworks on the Fourth of July, I had to make the decision to enjoy the moment, rather than just rush through it to get to the next thing I had to do. This time, I actually stood and enjoyed the experience. I pushed back all urges to be ungrateful and negative. I resisted pessimist thoughts that tried to intrude upon my time with my daughter, and the enjoyment of my holiday.
“I’m grateful that I’m learning that being grateful is not always easy. It doesn’t come naturally. It will sometimes be a battle. However, being grateful is a decision, not a feeling.”